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Hi I'm Maggot
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xx, bfa, wgtn, nz

dead birds




photoboothing at uni because i don’t give a fuck and life is 120% better than it was yesterday thanks to my new medication and an awesome tutor and the best friend in the world

176baby:

this would be a good space for a scene, with spectators watching from the darkness.

176baby:

this would be a good space for a scene, with spectators watching from the darkness.

appreciate all the little things you achieve when you are struggling. did your washing. cleaned your room. went to the doctor. filled your script. ate dinner. hugged your flatmate. went to bed on time. drank water. did another stupid day.

maybe it has something to do with the physical pain of being in my body and the emotional pain of having to be aware of my body in a new way

176baby:

beautifuk:

like realistically does anyone feel like their body is truly theres like does anyone ever look at their body and think ‘yes this is me and truly me and always has been always will be’

no i’ve felt really trapped inside myself a lot, like my body is not a representation of who i really am or want to be and it’s so frustrating 

yeah and  like i don’t dislike my body i just feel less and less like i am attached to it and less like it is mine

i am not convinced

like realistically does anyone feel like their body is truly theres like does anyone ever look at their body and think ‘yes this is me and truly me and always has been always will be’

i can’t wait till my body is me and not a constantly morphing shape that goes from good to fine to not me to beautiful to awful

do u ever look at photos of urself and they just aren’t u at all they are just pictures of someone that u recognise

today bad

yep the results are in i hate being me today i hate today

i am not going to do anything today apart from go to the doctors and i am not going to feel bad about it because i have a physical disability and i am doing the best i can and today that’s gonna be eating crying and going on the internet