when get crushes on people i do this thing where i just tell everyone that i have a crush and i tell them who they are and how beautiful they are and all that is fine except for when you go to the same university
i am pretty sure that my friends don’t care and i sort of believe that my boyfriend didn’t care but i am almost positive that strangers will not be stoked to find out i have very bad skin hidden under my clothes.
i want to sleep with someone or at least just have physical intimacy but i am too terrified for anyone to see or touch my skin. when i broke up with my boyfriend i realized how few people i trust enough to have bare skin around them. i am afraid to be in other peoples rooms or even their houses because of the skin that i shed and the fact i might spontaneously start bleeding on something.
"Her current situation or relationship is not up to par, but cannot improve it without help. Hides her vulnerability by holding back affection
or being overly expressive. The relationship may be depressing, but the fear of losing too much keeps her around. she wants to be independent and free, but fears the future will be just as disappointing. Her situation leaves her sensitive and impatience, seeking a quick escape. her restlessness may destroy the ability to concentrate.”
shout out to flatmates who hear you crying yourself to sleep and come in w ciggies and beer, you’re beautiful
you can see a lil of it in my art/school tag but most of that is from first year/the posters i make for women’s group/doodles. with my work at school i work mainly in contemporary, conceptual and multi-disciplinary. I am interested in the everyday/mundane, memory, collectives/collections, and the criteria that operates around whether something is considered memorable/worth/keepable or not. I mostly work with photographs and 2D sculpture at the moment, but am not in anyway a photographer. i intend to move more sculptural and into being a maker instead of a producer but that takes time and i need the ideas and money to fuel it.
i love art school more than a lot of things but i don’t yet consider myself to be an artist.